Thursday, March 12, 2009

♫ As we go on.. We remember.. All the times we've had together..

Yes, token graduation-we'll-be-friends-forever song. C'mon, this song has possibly been played at every graduation, farewell dinner or whatever since it came out. It was played at my Year 6 Farewell for goodness sake, along with my Year 10 formal, my Year 12 graduation AND formal. Haha. Ok to my point.. I know it's a real 'emotional' song & usually ends up with a couple of people in tears or people laughing at how lame it is, me being one of them. Lol. But thinking back this song really does have some kind of significance..

After graduation, of course you expect the changing of paths. You see people moving away, getting new jobs, new friends, new relationship & new lives. Me being a half-empty type at times i readied myself for these changes to avoid disappointment but i also felt like such a bad person for expecting the worse.

Now that most of my friends have started uni / tafe it has been extra hard to keep in contact with. It's either they have school this day & are free the next but then i have work or whatever that day.. or something like money shortage gets in the way. I see them every few weeks or so, even my best of friends & when we talk on the phone / msn / other social network, we're always like 'I miss you' & 'We have to hang soon'.. It saddens me. I sometimes have these short anger spurts at them or myself for having these schedules that also makes me feel so selfish after. I need to change!

I know that in some of these cases it has been my fault since school is school & cant be changed where i can take certain days of work since i'm only part time. I hate saying no to friends to go out just 'cause i have a shift i just accepted or i'm low on cash. I am now going to make more of an effort to see my mates to stop my anti-social insanity. Haha. Because honestly, I sincerely do miss all those times we've spent together.. I think about it alot.

I effing miss these girls so much! They were the reason i even went to school. :)

I miss my random hangouts with those girls that made everything better!

I miss when we were young & carefree!

I miss being able to tell absolutely everything to certain people.

I miss our attempts at the impossible. Well clearly impossible to us. Hahh!

I miss being absolutely loved. :)

I miss those crazy days.

I miss people being themselves. :P

I miss always having someone to lean on, in this case literally on Leesh. :P

I miss those kids i visited just 'cause i really liked hanging out with them. :)

I miss how we all came back together in the end & hung out just like the old days.. even with all the crap that happened before. :)

I miss our hardcore party season (LULZ!) *cough* & how we all let lose. :)

I just miss it all..



  1. its alright, think of this as a positive thing, you'll make new friends find out who you're real friends are and those who aren't, and find that you will become best friends with people you knew but never really hung around before... don't think that you have to fix it all, if they are your friends they should be making the same effort to see you, don't let play take over your life, coz you'll find that everyone that goes to uni will study and play but then they will have a degree to use. look after your self before you consider blowing it all on friends coz one day you will be in the same position and it will be them telling you that they can't make it coz of work and things...

    do things in your own time, if they are your friends they will understand and still be your friends at the other end

  2. They do understand.. They even tell me to chill off from work sometimes coz they're worried i tire myself out too much. The thing i'm pointing out is i'm usually the one that says no. I already know what days they free yet when they invite me out on those days, i usually say no even when i know it's not completely impossible & i know that yes next semester i'll be in same position as them but i just wanted to say that i really do miss it & it made me appreciate time with them much much more.. :)